I posted this quote on my Instagram almost two years ago, at the start of 2016. 2015 had been a very rough year for me, the latest in a string of ups and downs that had left me physically and emotionally battered. I was extremely unhappy with my life but with the start of a new year, I was determined to change everything for the better. I had big plans for new beginnings in my career, my relationships, and my fitness goals. 2016 was going to be my year. I was going to OWN THIS!
Boy, was I in for a rude shock.
2016 turned out to be the year my life fell apart in every way. None of it was truly sudden; looking back with honesty, everything that happened was a long time in coming and some of it was much needed. But it didn’t feel like it at the time. By the end of the year I was absolutely miserable in my job, I was broke, my house was flooded, my marriage had dissolved, and one of my best friends was no longer speaking to me. Stress was making it difficult to stay healthy and so I pretty much felt like garbage 24/7. I thought I had had some all-time lows before, but this was the worst. For the first time in my adult life I didn’t even decorate for Christmas. As the year ended and 2017 rolled around, the last thing I felt like doing was posting positive quotes; I had been dealt so many blows at once that I didn’t see how I was supposed to put my life back together and get to a better place, and I was too overwhelmed to even think positively.